I really don't have anything to update
but I really do feel like writing something.
You know, if one must meditate once in awhile,
I prefer writing meditation more than anything else
( Occationally walking meditation and
room-cleaning meditation worked also!! ).

They said that " I think, therefore, I am " but
I don't know what I really think unless I write it down.
But writing things down also has its disadventage;
It is the trying-to-understand-it-all phenomenon.
There are times when I really don't need to understand
anything but just feel it living and moving around.
That is, what I think, the art of poetry. Because when
I write poetry I don't have to find the conclusion.
I just have to make sense out of vague messeges or
feelings that have been hanging onto me like some
gums underneath my shoe. Speaking of poetry,
I'm taking a poetry class just to fulfil my English
requirement at UW. It turned out to be quite alright.
The teacher is VERY emotional and easy-going.
I learned some poetic terms and styles and how to analyse them.
I first thought that the class was going to
teach people how to become a poet
but it turned out to be just teaching about poetry.
I always thought that nobody can try to be a poet at all.
You simply become one, just like that! Just like a boxer.
Nobody can try to be a boxer. You simply become one.
You can train your ass from day to night, seven days a week
but if your spirit is not that of a fighter, you're not going to be
a real boxer at all. You will become an acrobatic dancer.
To be a poet, you need to live your poems. At least, that's what I think.

(sign) Hasn't it been awhile since I came up with a new song?
I came up with some ideas but they are still lingering around
and failing to come together. I, for one, dislike having too many songs anyway.
Maybe it's my amatuer uptakes on those things but I prefer organic music.
Something that simply grows on me. But also I have to tend it little by little.
Not doing anything at all and simply waiting for it will take me eternity.
No tree grows on its own, right? Even when sometimes it appeared to be growing
on its own it was just something helping it grow.
Could be something invisible like bacterias or air and whatnot.
With my music, I try to capture something I'm not sure what.
Some particular moments. Nostalgic moments mostly.
I try to capture those moments and transform them into songs.
Sort of like taking a photograph.
Days ago, I just went and took pictures of some old-style houses
that I happened to pass by. I did that too with music. I realized it now.
Same process but different art form, that is.